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Then there are the nights where you can soften the crying and ignore the source

Or let it out because then someone might hear and try to stop it.

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Reblogged for later

(via h-goldbach)

and then I start to think:

since I have no one to talk to
that means no one would miss me

antoinedag:

Damn NHL, at least take us out to eat before you FUCK US!

antoinedag:

Damn NHL, at least take us out to eat before you FUCK US!

withyourheartopenwide:

This is not a bad thing.
This is a thing that makes me happy.
But what if it’s a thing that could lead to a worse thing
And that leads to something worse
Then it’s a bad thing.

And does knowing its potential but continuing make me a bad person?

Should I stop now in fear of myself or enjoy the wonder and stop panicking?

This was a bad thing.  This was flirting with a kid when I have a devoted, amazing boyfriend.  Now he admits he has feelings for me and I feel awful.  I am a bad person.

Maybe I shouldn’t blow this out of proportion.  ”Even though I’m into you” could mean something else, maybe?  I shouldn’t explode this into a means for major self-loathing.  But I wish I heard something besides “it’s not your fault,” because it is.

I kept talking to him.  I kept hanging out with him.  I sent goddamn smiley-face texts.  I constantly told him how great a person he was.  I even said I missed him while I was gone.

It was an effort to build his self-esteem so he could succeed with other girls but I’d be lying if I said the extra attention didn’t boost my self-esteem also.  I exploited him and betrayed Tim but neither guy realizes how wrong I am.

Someone just slap me in the face and tell me to stop it before it gets worse.

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But still there’s a part of me that is so curious about how he feels and I don’t know why.

  • Me: sigh it's gonna be a lonely boring walk to tim's
  • Evil me: you should listen to your iPod
  • Me: a young girl walking alone at night through the city with headphones in?! That's not safe!
  • Evil me: you know what else isn't safe?
  • Me: what
  • Evil me: underage drinking
  • Me: touche evil Jordan.

What am I doing with my life.